Friday, September 4, 2009
I'm so sick and tired of everything in my life.
How would you feel if you can't be yourself, and everyone's pressuring you,
pushing down on you, until you feel like a worthless little dot on the face of the earth.
It hurts. It really hurts. How did things become this way?
By trying to help someone somebody else hates you..
it's not like i help people because there's a benefit to it.
i don't give a shit about what i gain.
but if there's other people who you know were just like you, it's really hard to ignore them.
because friends stick through thick and thin. I still hope that there are people who really do care about me...
If people aren't selfish every now and then, nobody else is going to care because you should face your own problems.
BUT this...i don't want to hurt anybody. I don't know why everything's so messed up like this and i can't tell anyone.
I wonder if i'm doomed never to have a friend close to me. i wouldn't blame her if she and her friend patched up and ganged up on me. coz i'm horrible.
im just feeling so sick and trapped and tired coz every little thing i do might hurt someone.
::5:38 AM
